tomorrow onwards, electrical bills will go up. so charge your cameras, laptops, handphones or whatever by today. then can save some money. just came back from lunch with part of the gang. we had a "kill the mum" mission. its quite exclusive, i won't talk much about it. anyway, sudoku is really fun.

so tomorrow is the band comp, i've changed my mind. i wanna see them lose and see how will that bias principal of ours react when her dear band falls finally. i want them to lose, but i want my friend to get the best drum major award. today the gang played better soccer. past few days of soccer plus the weather is really burning me. i'm living up to my tomato nickname!

alright, there's no dinner for me later. i gotta go find an early dinner, then rush to CCAB for training tonight myself. parents can't send me, so sad. oh, today my teacher let me try yesterday's o level oral. she say i did not bad. so hopefully i'll do slightly better than not bad next thursday. i also realised i've been spending money so fast that i forgotten that my funds are getting lower and lower. gotta start spending less or i won't survive july. =(

the weather has been terribly hot these days. i owe mingfen $50 for stick. i owe school $30 for second payment of prom night. last but not least, i know a kungfu master who has durians lying around at home and will accidentally step on it. ok, that's retarded.

today the gang is back with street soccer. we have lost our touch after the holidays. we keep losing and we played terribly. we need just one more day, next week we shall be back as strong as usual. this saturday is band comp finals at national stadium. next monday is a school holiday, i'm so glad to be a youth.

i'll be representing my class to do individual long distance run for my school's 50th anniversary celebrations. its my last year, i wanna win it! always get top 10 but not first. this time, i'm gonna train at club's gym when the day approaches. this year's motto is "nothing but the gold".

tonight gotta go all the way to club to help my friend get her replacement of her lost membership card done. i'm sucha kind friend right? i know i know. =P

those words hid my pain...

those words made me seem strong...

those words pretended that i could stand all by myself...

just came back from lunch gathering with the 'gang'. we saw a pair of lesbians while having lunch. speaking of lesbians, i saw some really pretty ones before. sadly, they are lesbians. if you are one of those pretty lesbians, don't be sad, ivan will always be here for you if you wanna turn straight. wahaha!

so i went school today myself coz dad took car to malaysia. it was quite fun i must say. oh ya, that day i got caught for long hair, but i managed to escape the school barber this time after some sweet talk. haha, luckily i escaped, the last time the school barber cut for me, i didn't go out for a few days. oh, school started this retarded programme. we're gonna start learning the national pledge in chinese, malay and indian as well. then dono from when start, we will say it in a different language during assembly every morning. stupid.

chinese o level oral next week. pretty fast eh, haven't been speaking chinese for quite awhile. i really hope i do super well for chinese then i can set my mind at ease. by the way, i've ordered this 99 roses bouquet and paid $300 for it. i paid full, not deposit. so they gave me this collection slip with the receipt to collect anytime between 27th-29th July. its a florist at plaza singapura. i do not need the bouquet anymore, so if anyone want it, i'll sell for $250, that's $50 cheaper. contact me if interested yea? =D

it was a wrenching night for me yesterday. true or false, i've lost. tried my best, did all i could, there's nothing more to do. you don't always reap what you sow. everything was so bad that i skipped school today just to have some quiet time alone.

dad dropped me in school, then i walked out of school and took a bus. wanted to go east coast, but ended up on the tip or orchard at tanglin mall. had macs breakfast before walking down the whole of orchard road. first time i walked the whole stretch or town. saw cool stuff, new puma boutique selling really expensive clothes, not the sporty type, smart wear type. pau and pam were giving me lots of encouragement through smses early in the morning. people with name starting with PA are nice! =D

i ended up in marina square, went on a shopping spree to make myself feel better. bought sleeveless, bought shorts. then went to candy empire at millenia walk. really big place selling all sorts of imported sweet stuff never seen before. lots of rare willy wonka stuff too. cooks caught me while i was shopping, we went back club together and kel came. i told them what happened over lunch. kel gave some advice, thanks alot!

we then went to delta for the nationals friendly. ben, ishak, noordin, kel, pau, cooks and i went to eat after the game. on the way there pau woken me up with some really logical reasoning and encouragement. didn't know she was such an understanding person. i really appreciate all that she has said alot. she has helped me think clearly what my next move should be. thanks pau! thank you cooks and kel for spending with me the day!

i was once an ATM and a slave to someone i really liked. i was made to wait willingly and was given hope when she liked me. i've realised that it was all a plot to make me wait longer and make use of me more. what a fool i've been. now that i'm of no more use, the truth is revealed. i shall now leave quietly with regrets of my foolishness. my time, effort and money. mentally and emotionally exhausted. we've spent so much wonderful moments together, stayovers and even went on a cruise together. i should have known from the start, now 2 years of my life has been wasted. i now feel sorry for rejecting the others in these 2 years just because of her. nothing can be done to turn back time. words can't describe how i feel. i really did alot and all i can but in vain. why am i so unlucky? it was quite an enjoyable 2 years though. i shall just say hard luck and pick myself up. to all those who care, do not worry, i'll need time but i shall move on and be stronger from here. thanks everyone! =)

i just woke up and realised everyone at home is gone. i called my mum, she say everyone is out for dinner. she say she had attempted to wake me up but i did not. so now i'm sadly siting at home alone waiting for dinner. i didn't knew i slept so like a log. =(

if you all have been reading, my computer has been giving problems. last night it gave me problems again. i asked someone over to take it away for repairs and my auntie lent me a spare CPU which i'm using now. so i'm pretty sad coz this new CPU does not have my files, songs and photos. its alright, at least its more stable and i keep it goind for 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days per year. but i don't think it will last a year, my com gonna get repaired pretty quickly.

first day of term 3 today. it was pretty alright. class had new curtains, we had a new timetable and school chicken rice is more expensive by 10 cents. i missed the food and my 'gang'. i grew taller too coz my pants is now shorter than before! haha. i have so many payments to make. $20 for broken table to rachel. $100 to mingfen for hockey stick.

its so true, school has freaking started... =(

bloody hell! someone tell me its not true that school is starting tomorrow! tell me that the holidays has just started! ok, self-denial makes me look like an idiot. extra lessons, hockey and no vacations. what an interesting holiday yea? lucky got world cup this year, or my life will be so boring totally. now its time to blast full gear towards the o levels. its the final step of the journey...

this holidays, i grew closer with many hockers due to so much hockey to play. although i didn't go out with the gang, they are still the best. had a few stayovers. had this really really really terible night out. didn't stepped into town at all. the only decent outing i had was to island creamery and then jurong point. besides that, i've been to nowhere else. didn't do any revision and i don't think there's homework? i also realised i forgot alot of school stuff and don't know how to cope tomorrow. i haven't packed the messy piles of books on my table. i miss school's food..

SOMEBODY SAVE ME! =(

today was an incredible sporting day again. went to club in the evening for 5-a-side soccer carnival. hockey section got 4th. we went semis, lost by penalties. we went 3rd and 4th placing, lost by penalties again. then slacked around over some food before heading home.

this afternoon went to a catholic church. gosh, catholic got so many procedures to carry out. songs were peaceful and all the reading of those stuff. a little boring, but i choose to respect. i realised this year SYF will be shown on tv. everyone, please support TK band. if they win again this year, it will be the 5th consecutive time. which makes them champions for 10 years running.

i met a primary school friend at club today. she called me first, i couldn't recognize her. gosh, that time in primary school she was not-so-good looking. now suddenly become so pretty. lessons to be learnt, cherish your friends around you. haha, time to snack and get ready to watch soccer! =D

ladies and gentlemen, sorry to disappoint but it was just another day of hockey. went to delta for my finals, we lost 2-0. expected already, our team was too weak this year, not enough players, that's why i was not so devastated. then i watched the girls under-18 finals. i still think jansenites played better than crescents. but crescents won though, its not always the better team that wins eh?

laura and company was watching the game too. i was busy discussing with pau and kel some high level geography questions while watching the game and it reminded me that school is starting on monday. dammit, first two weeks of holidays is normal lessons. last two weeks all hockey. where's the part for going out, watching movie and having lots of fun? anyway, went to kel's place to slack and play winning eleven on his xbox. i was using the not so good lyon and he was using the good inter milan but i won 3-1! lol.

robin then came to pick us up and we went for training! i've been hanging around with hockers these few days. quite fun, and today i just realised that kel, pau and lim are cousins! wahaha. tomorrow there is some field soccer 5-a-side thing at the club. i'm supposed to play, but dunnoe is i should go or not. its been long since i touched the sport i once played alot. anyhow, i'm super tired and i wanna sleep! =P

RECS is arrogant? perhaps, coz its hard not to be when you are good. my com got serious problem, guess i won't be online for quite awhile.

we won today's semis. tomorrow finals. i rushed to delta after my semis. the U18 girls lost their semis on penalty strokes. how sad, then i played another match for the national U-16 side against the national ladies. as usual, national hockey is always boring hockey.

went for dinner with ben, mingfen and ying. then their friend came along and thought i was ying's fiancee. do i freaking look that old? so irritated man. anyway, we had dinner at esplanade's makansutra before heading back home.

my holidays are totally gone. hockey everyday, there's no time for anything else at all. believe it or not, i haven't stepped into town this whole holidays. how pathetic can it get. and no computer the next few days. i know everyone will miss me, haha, so drop me a sms or simply call me for a chat. gotta go!

tomorrow plate semis, final chance to prove ourselves worthy, achieve something and play for pride. today match was weird, first 5 minutes goal frenzy, then after that whole match no goals at all. we won anyway.

so i went all the way to club this morning to watch hockey, slack around and eat with kelvin. cookie and pauline also went. so we slack and ate lots and lots of food! haha, then we played some photo hunt game there. it was fun la! but sadly, we couldn't get into the top scores.

then i left with cookie first. i headed to CCAB for game, she headed to delta to be manager. after my match i rushed to delta in a cab to make watch a little of the girls game and to make sure my DSA application forms are in safe hands.

then i left delta with ben and mingfen to shop around marina square and had dinner! wah, after 8.30pm, the gelato there goes for half price! $2 for 2 flavours, so nice la! then we had lots of interesting chat topics. so i came home after a long day and now i'm gonna eat some chicken wings i bought! hehe, i love eating! =D

MINE

My Junior's

school is starting next week. is that good or bad? i seriously can't wait for the o levels to end. but then again, i also hope it wouldn't come. anyway its gonna come, so there's nothing i can do to change it. might as well work hard and try my best for it! today my letter has been settled by the club. i can finally send the whole DSA application to VJC. if it is being approved, it will be a motivation for me to study hard!

is there no school homework? or have i made a mistake? i really cant remember being given any homework. monday back to school, gonna be quite rusty to the school work part but i'll be happy to see the gang again! i heard this year the chinese 7th lunar ghost month thingy has two months instead of one isit? the ghosts must be very happy yea? i think under-18 team no hope already. most probably we can't go into semis. we've ruined the beautiful streak of runs by recs hockey. so sad. =(

its midnight and i'm blogging. i love blogging late. haha, my U18 match just now was a draw, at least the team is picking up and playing much better now. my DSA application is just awaiting a letter from the club and it will be done.

i didn't make it into the national under-21 team. but its alright, coz i think my standards have been only good enough for the under-16 team at most. but what makes me upset is that this guy from my team got in. he is an underaged smoker and he doesnt attend training at all. maybe the list is not updated, last time he was really good, but not anymore now. i'm not referring to myself, but i think there are many other players who deserve the place more than him. oh wells, i'm not gonna watch world cup anymore, spain at 3am, too tired to wait. sleeping time! =D

didn't feel really well today and slept the whole sunday away.

one week from now i'll be crying. coz the following day will be the start of school term again. gosh, its gonna be full gear towards the o levels. anyway, last night was a really happy night. leave the sad things aside until it comes. haha, my DSA application to VJC would most probably be successful. just needa wait for my coach letter. my friend sent hers one morning, and on the same day, they informed her of the acceptance. so fast and quick.

tonight is a great world cup night. japan is playing now, brazil is playing next and then finally france to end the day. great teams to watch. Hong Kong national player Arif Ali who is also my team mate at RECS and a friend of mine has agreed to take me to hong kong after my o levels for a one month stay and play hockey there! it is only going to improve my hockey and allow me to gain lots of experience. i'll get lots of exposure to a higher standard of hockey and i'm really looking forward to it!

i think its true, the more you sleep, the more tired you get. anyway, i'm gonna pack my room now. bye everyone! =)

WHEEEEEEE!

Singapore Recreation Club has swept all four of the finals today! We won everything! all the way RECS!

Reflections on my first season in the Premier League
i scored a goal in the semis. i've learnt to dribble less and do more quick passes. i've learnt to play quickly and be more cunning. it was a beneficial experience for me.

so we went on to party at the club. free dinner and lots of drinks. i saw my name on the hall of fame at club! i was so happy! yeah! yeah! winning this season is RECS fourth consecutive victory. we are strong! finally can take a break and focus on the u-18 team. it was a huge relief when the final whistle went. may our hockey prosper further in the years to come! =)

just came back from training. tomorrow is the big day for RECS. everyone should be ready. tomorrow there are four finals in singapore's hockey fraternity. under-15 boys and girls. premier league mens and ladies. RECS is in all four of these finals! hopefully we will win all tomorrow and scoop everything up! wish us luck! =D

england match half time. goaless, so boring. i got bored and i edit this picture of myself..

PLEASE DO NOT LAUGH OR GET SHOCKED

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Here It Is!

computer is back = ivan is back

so i survived a day or so without the computer. its really weird, the computer goes bonkers suddenly, then you try a few more times, its back again. how cool can that be? whatever it is, at least its back again. i was so worried i might lose all my songs, photos and files.

i just realised that the holidays are passing quickly and ending soon! i don't think i'll be going out much, its all hockey, hockey and hockey. so many matches, so tired. hmm, but i should do fine. just came back from a match also. i'm so tired, i'm gonna go sleep and then watch the world cup tonight!

i'm so so so happy that my com is back! =D

we don't get along,

we don't click,

there's no chemistry

hi everyone, my computer broke down yesterday morning. so now i'm blogging at my friend's place. stayed over here last night as well! haha, gotta blog fast and go for my first under-18 match today.

yesterday was a crazy day, brought my friends to Island Creamery and then went all the way to Jurong Point. haha, it's been long since i stepped into the western part of our tiny little island. as expected, a bloody long journey home. haha, i shall stop here. gotta run!

dammit, my mum just called to say that the computer at home still won't work!! =(

you may be perfect,
but never there at the right times,
never there with the right emotions.
she was full of flaws,
but always there at the right times,
there with the right emotions.
although not-so-perfect,
i've chosen her.

i burned some aromatherapy stuff when i slept last night. it surely has an effect, i woke up really late this morning afternoon. so i spent the whole boring day at home watching DVD, playing computer games and hunting for my missing pack of potato chips. what a boring day.

come to think of it, i have quite a barbaric childhood. bullying people when i'm in kindergarten. i had also got into trouble with the law at the tender age of 6. that year, my older cousins and i bought some zippo refill and burned this whole playground. it melted, police came, we ran. till today, we are still not caught. thinking back, it was really something terrible to do, why would i have the guts to do it. it was like a big fire in the neighbourhood, luckily nobody was harmed or anything. terrible. then at primary 5, i did stuff like extortion in school. got lots of discipline problems in primary school. i do not have any contact with my primary school friends. coz most of them were bad influence and others i was too ashamed to face them.

i was a really horrible kid. luckily i have changed alot since then, or else i think nobody would wanna even be my friend now. i almost fell into the gangster category last time. i could well be a school dropout smoking on the streets. luckily i did not fall into the trap. but i think i still carry some evil essence with me these days. well, i do not know, surely there would be some scars left behind yea.

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lemme cover a little on festivals and occassions. who created friendship day, father's day, teacher's day and stuff? such days were created long ago. i believe it was by some poor gift shop owner. why do i say so? such days are an obvious way for gift shops and florists to get rich. they can make loads of money on such days. it seems like the true meaning is no longer there, its about making money. if you love your friends, everyday is friendship day. you love your partner, everyday is valentines' day. so on and so on. don't you people think so???

kbox-ing tomorrow anyone? =)

I AM A LEFT BACK AND I FREAKING SCORED MY FIRST PREMIER LEAGUE GOAL IN THE SEMI FINALS TODAY. (everyone say WOW!) I'M LIKE SO HAPPY CAN.

tomorrow is monday, i think i'm gonna spend the whole day at home. if anyone wanna go out, feel free to ring me. most probably i would wanna stay home to pack my books and files neatly. re-adjust the position of my bed. go buy some colourful guppies and start my mini fish tank beside my bed again. buy a few little pots of cactus to decorate my room. if i'm free in the evening, maybe shopping at IKEA for some stuff to make my room look better. today i already went there before hockey to buy this candle holder, you can put those tea light candle in it. it is like the old fashioned kind of lamp where they carry to explore caves, metal frame then glass around it, but this is more beautiful with stars. i also bought a sexy red wastepaper bin. tomorrow i'll probably buy some fancy mirrors and a lava lamp. *cheers* =)

ok, this will be a combined post. friday night, i self-abused myself after watching the opening game of the FIFA World Cup 2006. i am too lazy to describe what happened, so you can ask me yourself. and on the next morning, i discovered someone so close to me, was actually a big time backstabber. it sucks, i hate such people. but what can i do? might as well be happy, if i become sad, that backstabber will be so happy.

ok, so last night was another crazy night of stayover. yes, same place as the two previous times this holidays. i made a new friend called hammy although its real name is sandwich, but hammy sounds nicer. if you're wondering who the hell would name their children after a food, and such a not-so-appetizing food like a sandwich. you're right, nobody would name their children that, coz sandwich is a hamster! its not a normal hamster, its an over grown fur ball that is suffering from severe obesity thanks to the owner who feeds it 'well'. well, if the owner of sandwich loves to eat, and it like a pig. of course the hamster will be the same isn't it? =)

the usual stuff, ordering macdonald's. then watched the world cup matches all the way till 5am. someone played this obscene game online, i do not want to mention names. then the all time favourite disco session. finally, sleep! it was a weird sleeping position i had, but cool anyway. had really sweet dreams and a tight sleep! woke up, got chased home. so now i'm happily back at my own living space. ;)

premier league semis later, i think i should go slack or sleep more. ahh, i think this holidays aren't so bad. quite fun filled and packed with activities. looking at the whole list of hockey matches i have. i won't be bored for sure. and if i'm not bored, i wont think of stuff. if i don't think of stuff, i won't be sad. then ivan will be a really really really happy and of course handsome boy this holidays! hee hee

just came back from a big big lunch at cafe cartel. no its not siglap again, its raffles city. haha, there's alot of things in life you can save money on, but not on food! don't you just love eating and exploring places for good food? wahaha, i'm a pig that does! finally, last day of extra lessons, holidays officially start! got a match tonight..gonna go sleep now.

i did this interesting survey to find out which singapore blogger i am. i'm very proud of the results coz its not only the best singaporean blogger but asia's best blogger! and the result is...

Congratulations Ivan, you are...

'Xia Xue' Wendy Cheng of xiaxue.blogspot.com

You are a goddess/god. You've got the looks, the brains and the body. You have such an irreverent sense of humour, people listen to you religiously and worship the ground you walk on. On the other hand you can also be straightforward, blunt and very very controversial. That has the potential to offend many people, but of course you don't care, you just shoot. In the end, people either love you or hate you. Nothing in between.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

messages of the day:

don't treat someone too nice or give way too much,
coz they'll take if for granted.
people never learn to cherish others,
until they have lost that someone.
that's life, it sucks.

everything i do, i do it for you.

second post of the day. so i left off from the previous post, i went to town and swept the whole orchard, window shopping. it was so boring to walk alone, haha, i didn't have anyone anyway. i saw a few old friends and saw some cool stuff on sale.

i then took a train to clarke quay coz i still had lots of time to kill before my match. it was a nice walk along the singapore river. i then went to this japanese supermarket called meidi-ya. everything there was from japan, cool foodstuff you've never seen before. the candies were so full of variety as well. but everything was expensive. an apple for $10, but the highlight of the day is a watermelon that costs $156, no typo erroe here. would you believe that?!? madness.

i then went to an ice cream bar along the river. it was expensive but i could not resist the temptation. i've been having bad food days, today is no different. my ice cream actually had some metal filings in it! oh my gosh, i did not complain, just removed ant continue eating. when i'm about to finish my ice cream, i purposely complained. my plan worked! they gave me another 3 new full scoops! haha, i was hoping they charge me free, but sadly, it didn't really happen.

the walk along the river was quite emo but refreshing i must say. i was also going around checking places and prices to plan for the big day. hur hur. just came back from match, got a card for retaliating to some elbowing by the opponents. horrible people, umpire also horrible, couldn't tell who was right and wrong. my friend also got a card for chanting some stuff at that elbowing idiot. madness.

i never meant to hurt you;

today i broke a personal record for wearing contact lens, i took less than 10 seconds for both eyes compared to the usual minutes i would take. maybe my eyes grew larger? lol, today street soccer in school was fun. we played lots of beautiful one touches, backheels, flicks and tricks through our magic triangle. matthew, leon and myself! i even did a flip-flap and this spectacular volley to seal the game! wahaha, matthew, in case you're reading this, good game today! lol

this week is the last week of extra lessons. after this week, i'm gonna go to see some doctors for several stuff, i want a surgery for my palmer hyperhydrosis and i also wanna have that little lump on my neck checked to see if its cancerous, it has to be removed if it is. next, i would also want that special jab, some of you should know what i'm talking about. so its gonna cost a bomb, i can't be very active and my holidays will be kinda wasted. but i don't mind sacrificing.

have premier league match later, gonna go pack my stuff and take a little walk around the city, not shopping centres, but outdoors. enjoy some fresh air and sunlight alone, it makes me happier at least. then go for my match at night, bye bye bye. =)

06/06/06

how devilish can today's date get? haha, today was alot of running through rain. ben and i went to try the new cafe opened outside school recently. it was not so bad inside, we ordered ice blend and some chicken thingy with rice. the ice blend came, it was fine. then we were looking around for a grill, frying pan or something. there was none. we were wondering how they prepared the food. when the food came, it looked miserable. it came in plastic plates and cutleries. its some microwave stuff or something i bet. so cheapskate, they want to act like Cafe Cartel or something. retarded, just because their plastic plate is black instead of white, they think its so class and nice. terrible, its gonna be my first and last time there. i shall not name this cafe name, i'm not so evil.

should i pursue with my Hotel Dream or go for entrepreneurship? i have many ideas for entrepreneurship. start a chain of ice cream bars, selling shirts with themes of ice cream flavours, inventing some ceiling lamp that can help someone tan themselves at home, start a shop like 77th Street and many more ideas. i actually write these ideas in a notebook.

leon and i even have a bigger plan. to open a cinema and neoprint shop at parkway parade. that place seriously need these two stuff. so many students flock there after school everyday. a cinema and neoprint shop will do nothing else but bring money. i'm super sure about that considering the number of students and youngsters there.

entrepreneurship requires taking risk and alot of capital. i really do not know what to do for my future. maybe i'm thinking too much and too far. but isn't it good to know what you want early? we'll see how it goes...

i didn't go school today. i did not have enough sleep because i was staying at my friend's place last night. i brought my uniform and stuff, but still, didn't go school. just came home from there, so i spent my whole day there.

last night sent my sister off at the airport. she has gone to china for 10 days with her school. the stayover last night was crazy, we had our little own disco session, ate macs and talked alot. it was retarded, then we watched ghost movie today, chat sick but educational stuff and do alot of other retarded things you can possibly think of. ate pizza then came home. it was fun fun fun!

enough of fun, so tomorrow is school again. my holidays have been so far so good i must say.sorry peeps, too tired and too lazy to blog, tomorrow tomorrow...

my dear friend was chatting on the phone with me last night. we got so bored, she started to tell me stuff about girls. PMS, mensuration, giving birth and stuff. its sick but i must admit also educational. after the convo, i really pity girls. must mark calendar, must wear pads, worry about leaks and stuff. horrible, why was girls created this way anyway. guys much better, haha.

my dad bought this handphone from china which costs only SGD$170. it has 1.3 megapixel cam, 264k colour screen and MP4. it it smaller than your palm, 9cm long, 4cm wide. it comes in this really princess kinda box. had to be opened with keys to unlock and its pink in colour. its not the usual cardboard box, its a real box with pretty lace around it. when you open, the cute phone just stares at you with lots of fluffy stuff around it. although its so girly in packaging, the phone its not pink, its black. haha, how cool can it get? =P

yesterday premier league match we won, there's another match today. opponents should be quite easy today considering the fact that we thrashed them 5-1 the last meeting. my jersey is not dry yet since yesterday, so i've thought of an idea. i clipped the jersey on the blades of my ceiling fan and turned the fan on! haha, smart right? (Ans: Yes)

i hate burberry now and i'll never touch it again. its evil.

last night was crazy. i went to meet my three cool friends and we went to slack at east coast park till late. then one left, the other two came my house for stayover. then one of them did the craziest thing ever, playing with a condom! haha, due to safety reasons i will not reveal my friends' names. i have a hockey match both today and tomorrow, is that exciting or tiring?

let's talk a little about the integrated resorts coming up in 2009. why are they better than normal hotels or resorts? its the casino. money is the root of all evil, coz i see money linked to many many crimes and disputes. is the casino earning or the gamblers? consumers are always on the losing end for almost everything, so yes, the casino is earning big bucks. know why tiny singapore has so many bidders for the inegrated resorts here? singaporean gamblers are rash and greedy, they want more all the time and when they lose, they wanna fight back even more. ang moh gamblers are different, they are timid, they dare not play too much, and when they start losing, they run away. they do not attempt to make more.

my grandma used to be some gangstress or something. its not a good thing, but at least through that, she has earned enough for a comfortable retirement. so you can guess, her friends are all not-so-proper ones. i've seen many of them, owning 10 houses, after gambling, left with 3 houses. if you remember there was a news of suicide in furama hotel few years ago, its also my grandma's friend. suicide coz they lost heavily in gambling and are in heavy debt. there's another guy who got his family into trouble, he had piling debts, was rich with big house and car but end up had to sell everything. till now, his family still has to move house around with him once every few months to escape from those loan sharks.

gambling is terrible, greed will kill. just be contented with what we have, don't try to want more than what we have. work for money if we want it, shortcut methods are never safe. i'm quite a singapore lover, so i hope the upcoming casinos will cater mostly to foreigners and not locals. or else you will see many suicide cases on the news after the casino is opened. for holiday makers is not so bad, they stay only a period there, how much can they possibly lose? singaporeans are here permanently, they can go everyday and lose everything.

last but not least, an advice for everyone. do not gamble, but if you really want to, bet within your limits. its alright to lose a little, its bad to lose everything but its terrible when you start borrowing money! =)

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

another speechless maths lesson. lunch at my favourite family restaurant at siglap, dunnoe the name but i choose to call it Kang Kong Palace. superb cheerleading competition at EMERGE 2006.