i spent the whole day rotting at home.

my life as a hockey player in SRC. yes, i've got countless trophies and victories. but so what? there's something that every other team player can feel except me. its the feelings between team mates and the bond. in my club, its all about winning and not bonding. tons of the players don't come for training, you only see their face when tournament starts. even if they come, its just a hello and then a byebye at the end of the training. there's no bonding at all. i'm terribly upset as a captain for the youth sides. i just cannot seem to bond everyone and click with them. that's the reason why i always hang out with the senior players.

the club has been losing great players over the years. the club thinks the anuual general meeting dinner will bond the team. that's rubbish. the players will never feel attached to the club and committed to hockey. so one by one they will leave. my team mates are merely my team mates and not friends at all. we are from different worlds. i've taked to the coaches umpteen times to plan a trip or bonding sessions but nothing has been done. what else can i do?

let's look at innova jc as an example. i've been joining them for training. they may not be a champion team but they go for lunch together after every training session. try looking for that in my club, you won't find any of it. once training ends, we're all strangers in our own worlds again. its just sad that a club winning so many trophies is actually a shattered team of people from different worlds. i don't mind not winning, just give me the feeling of a team bonded and close together? i've not had that feeling since i left my primary school team. i miss it alot. people say that teamwork is a key to victory. i doubt so, my team is so shattered yet winning. but so what? when we win, we dont feel happy for each other at all. we're just merely happy to have another medal on our necks. its really very sad.