this blog is over. it is closed finally. we have moved to Vanified. a new blogging journey begins today. so head there now for the first post which is today's post. i still love ivaninho.blogspot.com =)

yeap, i got accepted by SA already. this morning went for tampines' junior college's orientation though. it was all listening to talks and doing cheers. then i left and headed to SA for training. training sounded tiring today but strangely, i felt kinda okay about it though. we jogged approximately 6km. from school to bishan and then back. haha. then close dribbled the ball for 2.4km and had a small game after that. well, tomorrow i have to go to TPJC in the morning to pass them my acceptance letter and get my withdrawal letter then take it back to SA to join their orientation. clarisse! schoolmates again, you say you would put same subject combi to go into same class yea. you better! whee! =)

the more you care, the more you worry
the more you question, the more a nuisance
the more you pester, the more the problems
the more the quarrels, the weaker the relationship
then everything becomes nothing at all.

it's quiet

second post of the day! phew, just got home and i'm super tired. anyways, training venue was changed from SA to ccab. haha. it was changed due to the school feeling tremors from the earthquake in indonesia. the school was sort of evacuated i guess. anyways, fitness training was suicidal like last week. nono, its worse today. haha. but i guess its a good thing, i really need to regain my full fitness soon. watched an exciting B div girls game after that.

ah, so school starts tomorrow after a super long break for me which seemed like it past by so very quickly. well, my appeal for SA is still pending and the outcome will be known tomorrow afternoon. so, i'll have to report to tampines junior college tomorrow morning. once i get the green light from SA, then i can leave on the spot and go join SA's orientation! cool stuff. i'm sleeping early tonight, been long since i woke up early in the morning and i miss it so. =)

ohmygosh, i got posted to tampines junior college. haha, that's a super retarded school, i'll never wanna go there. well, headed to SA this morning to hand in my appeal stuff. from what the teacher say from day one till just now, it seems like i'll definitely be in the school. haha. oh wells, i better not put too high hopes, you never know what can happen. fitness training in school later in the evening, gonna be a super tiring one again.

ah, really hope i get into SA. i've been training with them and they're really nice people. then i'm also excited about the malaysia trip this coming monday. the team has lots of potential and i wanna work towards something with them! dear principal, take me! =D

idiots fall for idiots;

whee! just got home from chalet and bbq. it was booked for my french cousin. the one i talked about few days back. yea, had lots of fun chatting and re-connecting with her again after so many years. my other cousins were there too. so it was just gathering and food. cool stuff. i'm off to deliver some satays now. =)

a video my "nice" team mates took today specially for me.

i scored on my debut for SA today! woke up early in the morning and headed out for a long day of hockey. played for SA in my first friendly for them. we played against sengkang sec and drew 1-1. i scored the goal through a drag flick from a short corner! whee!

then when its all over, i was tired but was also 45 minutes away from my next tournament game for my club. had a quick and light lunch then it was taking on the pitch again. yes, we won again. i love my new stick man, it feels better than my old one although its cheaper.

then came out super tired but couldn't rest. had to go dinner with my cousin and her boyfriend! they just came back from france yesterday! this is kinda confusing. her mum is my mother's sister who is also my auntie. my auntie married to a french, so they live in france. then, my cousin flew over to visit. she's mixed french and chinese. simple? haha.

i learn something called unconditional love. then, i just did a very big good deed few minutes ago and just got home. everything's fine except for pam. pam, i hope you cheer up k. you tried your best but things just crashed due to bad decisions. like i said, shit happens. not within our control, just move on yea. =)

my jumbow family.

yes! see that new blue jumbow above? GX 4000. i bought it today! its just a spare stick, i'll still use my orange one. then bought new shin pads today also.

just got home from SA. had briefing regarding the upcoming malaysia trip in the march holidays. i guess its gonna be quite boring but yet again may be fun. school trips are never interesting i guess? lots of restrictions and stuff. hopefully we'll go there and play some strong opponents then it will make the trip more worthwhile. ah okay, time for my bubble bath.

i'm having a quite cool phone chat now.

woke up early in the morning to get my mirror mounted onto the wall. does it look nice? haha, dumb people usually make it like a square or diamond pattern. people like me add a little bit of style in the way i do things. lol. when that was finished, i headed to cut my hair short in time for SA's training in school! then this happened to my head...

it's sad how my head looks like a durian now, but ya. i'm sure you can tell from my face in the picture that i'm quite "happy" about my new hairdo. hahaha. then i packed my room a little and found this picture below. i was such a cute kid yea?

then the next picture is my pathetic lunch i ate around 1pm till just only i had my dinner. haha.

anyways, i just got home from SA's fitness training. abit about the school first. very nice and new school building. cool facilities and the people there are very friendly. haha. girls are pretty too. heh! i like their uniform, i think its very cool. alright, the sad part. training was 1.2km jogging while carrying stick for warm up. then 2.4km of close dribbling with the ball. i hurt my back big time coz i'm not really adapted to such trainings.

next, shuttle run. the exercise has a name and the name contains the word suicide. i can't remember the whole name of the exercise. it was basically 3 sets of shuttle runs while carrying the stick. first set was 20 laps, second was 15 and last was 10. madness. i'm also surprised the girls managed to complete the same things as the guys. looks like life as a SA hockey player won't be easy. ugh.

SA training again but in their school tomorrow. first time i'm gonna step into their school. haha, time to take my bubble bath! =)

a picture with a big smile to start today's post although pam says it looks like a frog. i'm smiling coz i found out that the SA hockey captain blogged the following paragraph about me:

i am impressed with this new boy. his name is Ivan. there was so much hoo-ha when he joined us for drills. he could things that most of us cant do. i must say, he is currently the most profilic player on the pitch. former comb sch player, played hockey in primary school and an active club player. i believe the rest in the team are impressed with him too and hopefully sajc admin can give him the green light.

haha, cool stuff eh? that's why i'm happy and flattered! anyways, had only three hours of sleep last night before crawling up for today's match which we dominated to win 8-2 although it was supposed to be one of our toughest opponents in the group. boring! lol.

met the 'gang'. they played soccer in the morning but i couldn't join due to my hockey match. haha. it was a last outing for winston as he is heading back for the united states the day after tomorrow! sad stuff. played arcade and watched this super slow but touching movie based on a true story. its called Pursuit of Happyness. nope, i didn't spell it wrongly, its happyness in the show and not happiness.

a picture of my buddies busy shooting away at the computer. winston far away and zhao gen near near. haha. then we had dinner and now i'm home, tired and exhausted. msn time! its been long. =D

, they made me feel like i'm part of their family. lol. they are really a talented family of dancers, singers and musicians la! we were making so much noise till the police came and we had to stop. cool stuff eh. haha. had dinner there as well. oh ya, we also ate 'yu sheng'! haha, everything's wonderful today. have a match early tomorrow morning, time to sleep! =)

just got home from my first SA training. the people there are super friendly but i still need time to adapt into the squad. as in the style of play, its totally different from club hockey. haha. i want to win something man. teacher and coach also very nice. haha. i hope i can secure a spot as centre mid! lol. okay, time for lunch. buhbyes!

the above is my lunch today and i'm off to east coast.

taking a gamble;

the stakes:
-time
-youth
-effort
-money

the returns:
-finally a real smile on my face

Journal of a Foolish but Brave Sailor

210207 13:49 Reduced.
a short sleep, a nice dream, a bad ending to the dream, woke up, life's back the way it is
last hope: AMTHGF

knowing a storm ahead, yet braving the storm
my ship braved a storm on purpose, didn't get past it, back to where i am but luckily my ship was not destroyed. however, time and effort was wasted. my ship may have evaded destruction but certainly was damaged by the storm. as reparations need time, my ship will have to wait quite awhile before it can set sail again. in conclusion, after the storm, we're back to square one and adding on to that, we received damages.

lesson learnt: i knew the storm was impregnable, but i tried still. next time, be sure. it must have been painful for my ship to go through the storm and now my poor ship has to take time to recover. really, lots of time and effort wasted just to brave the storm. experience gained. had fun braving the storm though. proven the saying, you reap what you sow is false. i plucked up my courage, put in all my effort and did all i can to try get through the storm, but i didn't succeed in the end. low morale. emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted. doubt i'll be sailing again anytime soon.

key words: stupidity & delusion

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.

just got home from lots of events. met siewmin just now or should i say yesterday for pepper lunch. then we went on to watch ghost rider! nothing much has changed about her, still bickering with me non stop. haha. the movie was retarded and at some parts, scary. lol. stupid show la. then went on to meet cookie and mingfen! we went to river hong bao to see what's going on there. boring stuff la, just lots of food and amusement rides.

so we left there in search of dinner. ended up at siglap's hongkong cafe. ate noodles and some dim sum. then moved on to the cartel beside, my old workplace. had drinks and nachos, my treat! then i got lots of discounts coz my favourite manager was there. then went on to grocery shopping at a 24-hr supermarket with mingfen and cookie. tiring night. i'm gonna go bathe, sleep and wake up at 3.45am later to watch soccer! whee! =)

this year's chinese new year has been boring. as i get older, the mood for it is reduced. good thing is my relatives gave comments about me growing taller and being more handsome this year. bad thing is, red packet earnings have decreased drastically. alrights, meeting siewmin later for a meal and movie! then meeting cookie and mingfen at night to go river hong bao and have dinner! =)

you, you put the blue back in the sky

you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now, there's colour everywhere

food for thought, puzzle to solve.

If...

1=5
2=25
3=125
4=625
5=?

if you think your answer is right, msn me or leave it on my tagboard. =)

Gong Xi Fa Cai! haha. just got home from visiting. good income today and lots of fun with all my cousins at my place now. =)

chinese new year eve! haha, went lunch at my maternal grandmother's place just now. cool stuff. then went parkway to buy my two books. reading is fun! whee! reunion dinner tonight! nice food i guess. alrights, time to have a little rest first. =D

just got home from training and i was hit quite bad on my leg i think. haha. boring training coz all the guys were not there except girls. im tired and i need to sleep real bad. byeee.

no more VJ, its SA.

JUST FOR EYE VAN.

woah i was sittiing in the transport just now, listening to some chinese duet (that song happened to remind me of van), i realised that we have been spending sooo much time together.

he's always been there for me, every single day.
since the time he accompanied me to find that asshole.
and from that day onwards, he had never once failed to meet up with me.

cycled with me in the hot blazing sun just to buy cheesecake, accompanied to spy on arif, shopping, suppers at feifei, sending & picking me up from work and school, tanning & swimming, allowing me to sleep in his favourite corner on his bed, botanical gardens, tolerating my SIBEI kiampa face, made my whole family fell in love with him, listening to the song 'irreplaceable' with me over and over again', putting up with my attitude and my childishness, eyelashes too, accepting me even though i can be a unpredictable monster at times and hell lots more..

THANK YOU M.B.P.(MINI BENG PENGUIN)i really appreciate everything you've done.
I LOVE YOU & HAPPY VALENTINES DAY even though i still refuse to believe in it. <3

adapted from nat-a-lie.blogspot.com. sweet isn't it? i love such friendship posts, makes everything you've done seem so worthwhile. haha. cool stuff luh. i'm greatly touched. woohoo! =)

went soccer with the 'gang' this afternoon. its been long since i joined them. we had a major surprise when winston turned up! he was supposed to be in america! haha, but he'll leave after chinese new year again. ugh. now i'm sun burnt and tired. good night people.

From the heart I’m giving you everything, everything.
From the heart. I promise you that I'll be there.

I'll be there to love you.

From the soul I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is,
From the heart, from the heart.
I will protect you and respect you and be all you need.
And when you reach for love you only need to reach for me.
These arms will never let you down.
They’re staying around.
I'll walk with you through every storm.
I'll keep you save Ill keep you warm.
And you’ll have no doubt, you’re the one I’m living for...

you love someone but the other party is not feeling the same way, thus you have to start forgetting that person. does it make sense to stop even being friends with that person to help speed up the process of forgetting that person? being friends will just make your love grow deeper and make the hurt greater at the end isn't it? haha, just something random which i feel makes quite alot of sense. love is a gamble, you never know the returns. haha.

rotted at home the whole day. -__-

okay! first thing, last night the girl selling ice cream says i'm very cute! haha. okay, something random only. just woke up from a super long nap. had only 3 hours of sleep last night before going to my hockey match this morning. we won again, it's a boring tournament. heh!

then went lunch with my parents. i had a plate of chicken rice and a bowl of noodles! haha, power lunch eh? was supposed to meet siew min to get my super belated present today but the plan was aborted. then i was supposed to meet laura and marissa to get some presents, the plan was aborted also. haha. so i came home to sleep! alrights, i'm off for my grapefruit bubble bath! =)

today's gonna be a cool evening. meeting kel for dinner and catch up for a little. its been long since we hanged out. i feel so terribly sorry towards him. then meeting siew min to watch a hockey game. yea, guess i'll be home kinda late. in case you all are wondering what does the 12 in yesterday's post about, its my O level result. i'm sad coz i studied hard and the result wasn't single digit. yet again, i'm happy because the result has improved leaps and bounds compared to my prelims. alright, sun is burning and i need a bath now!

12

to you,

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one for me.

from me.

just got home. went grocery shopping with my mummy today and bought tons of junk food. tomorrow results are out. i'm more of excited than scared. i studied my best so i don't think there's any need to worry. whatever the outcome, i'll be happy that this phase of my life is finally over. i wanna go to school again. =)

went natalie's place this afternoon to evade my dusty house due to the renovation works in my kitchen. haha, we got bored and a little hungry so we took a bicycle each and cycled together to 7-11! how sweet right? haha, then we bought a sara lee strawberry cheesecake and cycled back to eat it up! the eating process was kinda stressful coz we were aiming cream on each other's faces once in awhile. heh! see, i'm home early tonight. i'm a good boy. =)

my new debit card!

haha. just got home from a very interesting half day. woke up by a call from cookie! its been so long since we've met. haha. she proudly announced she could come pick me up with a car! haha, i guess its normal to be proud of yourself when you've just got your driving license. i must say she is a very careful and courteous driver though. she'll sit in the car and scold other cars but she'll never use the horn. cool stuff.

so we went to the hongkong cafe beside the cartel i work at. ate some really nice food and peanut butter toast! haha. i drank nothing there coz the drinks are too expensive! then iced water costs 40 cents. yes people, i've changed. no more spending crazily but wisely. i've changed since i worked. i realised how hard it is to earn money and thus i spend money with caution now. no more shopping sprees and expensive food. i've become thrifty and maybe a little cheapskate now.

haha, then we finished lunch and i went to the bank to get my new debit card! cool stuff. if you see the picture above carefully, yes, the name printed on the card is ivaninho. hahaha. interesting eh. i can't wait to find a opportunity to use the card! well, what's installed for the rest of today, i don't know.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ME!

okay cool, now i am 17, i can finally apply for my debit card. last year i received 13 presents and 7 cards. this year, 3 cards and 0 presents. that's the contrast and difference. spent past birthdays in posh restaurants and extravagant things. this year, everything is humble. many people wished me without even me giving a reminder, i'm happy. some just disappointed me big time and there's even one who didn't realise its my birthday even though i hinted today. till now, this person still doesn't know its my birthday. ugh. i gave some people big presents for their birthday last year, now, they give me nothing. i don't mean i give presents in hope of something in return but, not even a card?

bunch of friends came. had scrumptuous dim sum lunch. so we slacked around at my place before heading to have dinner and watched the movie, Happy Birthday. how suitable, but its a really sad show though, i teared watching it. haha. alacked at parkway mccafe and candled up a slice of terrible tasting oreo cheesecake. don't buy the cakes from there, its seriously terrible. alright, it all ended and we all went home.

had dinner with my junior last night, his treat. thanks shaun! love you tons okay. haha. alrights, time for lunch with my family and then church in the evening!

victory over one of the top teams in the group but i got yellow carded. junior buying me birthday dinner later. fucked up day.

i'm gonna go off in a few minutes time again. i'm out every night. madness. what to do, results are coming out soon and i'll go to school soon. i'll be heading to buy my three quarter adidas track pants later! cool stuff. haha, finally decided to buy it. then meeting the same gang again. we are the lepak-ing gang of friday nights. this time its mccafe at clark quay! last week way at parkway. haha. we're gonna explore all the mccafe in singapore! whee!